I had tea yesterday with Dianne (Mike's mom) and she wanted to talk to me about the pro's and con's of the surgery. I know that deep down she is only commenting because she cares and I know that I have become a big part of her son's life... I hope she knows I wouldn't knowingly go into something that would endanger me or hurt him as a byproduct.
I am looking forward to surgery as it is a chance to counteract a lot of the health problems I deal with on an almost daily basis. arthritis in my knee, asthma, hypoglycemia (which may turn into type 2 diabetes if I'm not careful), IBS, etc. If I was looking for a "quick and easy fix" I would have applied for something like an Extreme Makeover or gotten plastic surgery years ago. I do want to be skinnier, there are a lot of things I want to be able to do that I either haven't ever done or haven't been able to do in years. Some of these things include:
- Go on an airplane without feeling like I have to "share" a seat.
- Buy a papasan chair and actually be below the weight requirement.
- Go to the Stampede or Calaway Park and ride the rides; being able to fit into the seatbelt.
- Not have to strain to get my seatbelt on over my winter jacket.
- Pick up my little cousins without it making me winded.
- Walk up more than one flight of stairs before I need to stop and catch my breath.
- Walk on a treadmill or elliptical trainer without my knee giving out on me.
- Swim more than 10 lengths before I have to stop and take my inhaler.
- Cuddle with my boyfriend without feeling like I'm going to suffocate him or myself.
- Take my dogs for a walk that is longer than around the block; without my knee killing me or my asthma acting up.
There are others but those are the things I have on my brain at the moment...
I appreciate Dianne's concern and I love that she cares but I'm not just jumping into this head first without doing a ton of research. This is something I have struggled with for years and I have felt more than once like I am at the end of my rope... Before I reach the end of it completely, I'm kind of hoping it will be a lifeline to my friends and family who are supporting me.
One of the best resources I've found is a forum that I am considering joining. Another is the book, "Weight Loss Surgery for Dummies." I have two copies if anyone wants to borrow one.